lolz i'm vaguely puzzled why i even bother to try. this hope is like a candle in the wind... ever flickering, ever unsteady, ever small and pathetic but refusing to just extinguish and die off. there are times when there's a lull and i'm so deceived into thinking how steady and bright a candle flame can be, but all it takes is a breeze for me to realize again just how weak it really is. it simply seemed bright amidst darkness.
2 months. lolz xb mentioned some stuff abt 2 months and it got me thinking. an irrational emotional response but a response nevertheless. how long are 2 months really? enough for acquantances to become friends, then to turn into lovers. enough for a flower to bloom and then fade and rot, as if it was never there before. enough for a furnace of hope to wither to a stuttering candle in the wind. and definitely enough to forget; for a person's presence to diminish till it is nothing more than a silhouette - a nameless shadow that vanishes with the coming of each morning.
oh well the angst is long gone. but it was a nice inspired para i tot. a product of a short period of emotional turmoil. wanted to capture it. and showcase it to the world? but the little details are all so personal. i'll be the only one able to appreciate it fully... so it's all narcissism. lolz i use my blog as a public mirror of my internal thoughts. except that i'm a biased judge. how can i not be? it's me. then again, it's me. laughZ
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
lolz i'm vaguely puzzled why i even bother to try. this hope is like a candle in the wind... ever flickering, ever unsteady, ever small and pathetic but refusing to just extinguish and die off. there are times when there's a lull and i'm so deceived into thinking how steady and bright a candle flame can be, but all it takes is a breeze for me to realize again just how weak it really is. it simply seemed bright amidst darkness.
2 months. lolz xb mentioned some stuff abt 2 months and it got me thinking. an irrational emotional response but a response nevertheless. how long are 2 months really? enough for acquantances to become friends, then to turn into lovers. enough for a flower to bloom and then fade and rot, as if it was never there before. enough for a furnace of hope to wither to a stuttering candle in the wind. and definitely enough to forget; for a person's presence to diminish till it is nothing more than a silhouette - a nameless shadow that vanishes with the coming of each morning.
oh well the angst is long gone. but it was a nice inspired para i tot. a product of a short period of emotional turmoil. wanted to capture it. and showcase it to the world? but the little details are all so personal. i'll be the only one able to appreciate it fully... so it's all narcissism. lolz i use my blog as a public mirror of my internal thoughts. except that i'm a biased judge. how can i not be? it's me. then again, it's me. laughZ